Yeah…right…

Yesterday evening at 6 I meant to sleep for a while, but then I woke up only to find out it’s already 4am *pulls hair*.

I missed a lot, first things that came to mind after I got it together are Merlin and Biggest Loser Asia. Gaaah. Then (not that I necessarily do it, lol) I planned to do some sewing, do the contractors list that my boss asked me a month ago *cries in a corner*.

And I thought a week ago it’s been going on well for me, y’know, being “more hardworking” than I used to. And I’m rapidly slipping back to my old habit.

consistency is painfully, excrutiatingly, frustratingly hard….

Speaking of a happening, I’ve started my class last Saturday. (LOL. So much for a “happening”. I really need to go out more). There aren’t many hours, the supposed first meeting was cancelled, which I’m sure will be replaced, since there’s going to be a group presentation later on, and last week plus a week after this week, so only 3 weeks of meeting (2 – 6 pm).

And I still haven’t meet my supervisor yet (Hey, I went to the appointment right on time, it was him who didn’t answer my call). I pray to God I won’t have to travel to JB to meet him. I’m a little bit over my budget this month.

Looking forward to seeing you more, nobody actually reads my blog, so nobody actually misses me XDDD. But I really hope to post regularly, you know.. as part of my self-discipline process.

My iPod fell in the toilet bowl yesterday~~~

Though I said that on the title, I still have a tiny bit of hope in me that it’ll still reusable, thus I put it in a container, fill it with paddy rice along with the iPod. The paddy rice’s purpose is for absorbing water.

And I just bought an earphone too. What did I waste RM 19 and RM 32 (for wrongly bought earphone) for? *cries some more*

La la la la la la la la la la, la la la la la la la la
La la la la la la la la la la

Now that I’ve lost everything to you, you say you wanna start something new
And it’s breakin’ my heart, you’re leavin’, baby I’m grievin’

But if you wanna leave, take good care
Hope you have a lot of nice things to wear
But then a lot of nice things turn bad out there

Ooh baby, baby it’s a wild world, it’s hard to get by just upon a smile
Ooh baby, baby it’s a wild world, I’ll always remember you like a child, girl

You know I’ve seen a lot of what the world can do
And it’s breakin’ my heart in two
‘Cause I never wanna see you sad girl, don’t be a bad girl

But if you wanna leave, take good care
Hope you’ll make a lot of nice friends out there
Just remember there’s a lot of bad and beware – beware!

Ooh baby, baby it’s a wild world, it’s hard to get by just upon a smile
Ooh baby, baby it’s a wild world
And I’ll always remember you like a child, girl, yeah

(Solo)

Baby I love you

But if you wanna leave, take good care
Hope you’ll make a lot of nice friends out there
Just remember there’s a lot of bad and beware

Ooh baby, baby it’s a wild world, it’s hard to get by just upon a smile
Yeah, yeah, yeah, ooh baby, baby it’s a wild world
And I’ll always remember you like a child, girl, oh yeah

Ooh baby, baby it’s a wild world, it’s hard to get by just upon a smile
Yeah, yeah, ooh baby, baby it’s a wild world
And I’ll always remember you like a child, girl

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I suddenly remembered this old favourite of mine, so I searched the www for the song. Back then I when I first heard it, I was still a kid, and my comprehension in english was still lacking a lot. I liked it purely because the melody is catchy. But now as I listened to it again, and understand the meaning behind the lyric (not that it’s deep, quite straightforward actually), I seriously cried. What’s more I’m not living with my parents anymore. While listening to it, I thought what’s father doing right now. Is he healthy? Is he getting more forgetful than the last time we met? hehe…I already filled in my schedule for the nest weekend to go home XD

How unexciting my life I’m leading right now.

Yours faithfully,
President of Terminate the Snooze Button Club

死ねえええええ！！！！

…Somehow I’m not convinced. I feel like they’re just being nice, though I know in working world, your superior won’t do that.

The thing is, I keep making mistakes. The teeny weeny mistakes but can’t be overlooked because it’s equally important with the bigger things. My listening skill sucks too. I can feel that sometimes they feel irritated with me making them repeat the instruction several times DX. Even I feel it myself.

Example of mistakes that I made:
-mispelled words in report, letter, etc.
-misheard the instruction
-Didn’t arrange the photostated copies correctly
-forgot to ask the caller identity and their phone number before hanging up

I dreaded for the moment when there’s a “Nadiah, come here for a sec” after I submitted my work. lol. Everytime I will think, “What did I do wrong this time?”

I want to be better…more and more, so that I won’t be a burden to people around me ^^;;…

I got scolded by my senior about phone call answering (yeah, lame, I know. I suck at answering phone call). It rooted from my decision to give her phone number to a person claiming she’s her friend. Professionally, I can’t give anyone’s number to anybody without their permission. Of course…that’s logic thinking. But me and logic aren’t really the best of accuaintance yet, so…

And you know the rest of the story.

In the midst of getting scolded, I was tempted to say the lame excuses I always say whenever fail,

“I’m sorry, I still can’t get the hang of the task, I’m a bit slow on this.”

But then somehow I foresaw her answering,

“Well, duh, thet’s why I scold you in the first place.”

lol. In the end I just kept quiet and just nodded occasionally. Why did I just think of it now? It must be annoying for people to hear other people pronouncing their own mistake. Or they’d say, “good, so you know your problem, then what am I wasting my spit for, here?”.

Turns out the “friend” that I gave her number to is really her friend. But you know that’s not the real problem XD

So can I tag this under self improvement? 8DDDD